I didn't know she existed. He'd *just* told an ex-girlfriend of his
after I left him that it was best he remain alone because he knew he was
fully responsible for the demise of our marriage so imagine my surprise
that he was hot and heavy with someone and so soon.
Not that he told an
ex, which was obviously supposed to be communicated to me (I forgot to
block her out of all the mutuals my lawyer insisted I unfriend, so at
least it allowed me to completely close the breach and I reassessed my
security settings as well). But one day I log onto FB and moments later
get a notification that some stranger with no mutuals has subscribed to
my profile.
The timing was serendipitous. I thought it was some chick
who thought I still played Sorority Life and clicked on her publicly
open profile (better fix that, chica) and in ten seconds saw a display
of pics of them together in clinches and typical lovey-dovey poses I
don't recall ever once doing with him. Ah yes...he hated the camera. Oh
and wasn't much into PDAs and uh....holy shit was she ugly as in hit by a
truck (no offense to accident victims or trucks everywhere) and lo and
behold, larger than life, a jpg of something about her never ever EVER
being unfaithful to him unlike SOME people. And I laughed and blocked
her.
I felt a little nauseated. He'd been telling people I was
unfaithful. I guess he had to dream up something that made him the
ultimate victim since he didn't have any gunshot wounds or gaping
gouting holes in his head from the pickaxe in the garage but the truth
was he was a sociopath as in certifiable. Not only had I been faithful,
but he hadn't touched me in any meaningful way in four years and
screwing someone on the side, but to this day a year and a half later,
I'm still pristine and nearly cherry. Not even a solitary kiss from
another.
So I mused on this after blocking this woman and tried to put
myself in her shoes. There were photos of me all over the house (I left
it all behind, all of it) and she had to be curious. I mentioned her
name to a few friends because I was incredulous but I didn't stalk her. I
can't say my friends were as noble. They stalk her to the nth degree
but I tell them I don't want to know.
I'm not so noble. It's just....she has nothing on me. And I left
him. If they found each other in the same dumpster, who am I to stand in
the way of wuv twu wuv. Whatever access she has to me (my blog, forums I
frequent, etc.) I don't mention her, well....except here, for posterity. I think that's what she's looking
for and my life started for real the moment I left him and she's just a
shadow in the corner of my eye.
Now they're engaged. I used to pray that he never have an
opportunity to hurt another woman again. Now I hope she has the brains
to find a good lawyer when her time comes. Or maybe a defense attorney.
Heh.
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